Forgetting about you is easier said than done. I've tried; believe that. On more than one occasion I've said I will not call, I will not message, and I will not frequent the same places that you do. I always go back on my word. It's hard to not be there when you are a genuine good person, when you are more than half the reason I smile when i'm out. You're not like any others i've known, by now they've all done some shit that I despise, something that makes it easier for me to chuck the dueces and be on my way. I've been waiting for you to F-up all these months, and still I have nothing.
I told myself I couldn't be just your friend, but the alternative isn't that appealing either. It's no secret that I like you, alot. I talk to you almost everyday, talk about you almost just the same. We had something and I'm not sure it's still there, but I'm not ready to end it all. I want you in my life and if friendship is all there needs to be between us then I rather have just that, than nothing at all.
Maybe i'm setting myself up for failure, for heartbreak, but for now all I know is that I need to see you and hear your voice and read those sweet messages. I need that smile on my face even if its temporary.
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