Reflection

It's been a day for me, I'm not sure why I'm still here on STX, I'm not even sure where I want to be or where i'm supposed to be anymore. I try to have faith, try to stay positive, but the truth is I'm lost and don't know how to find who I am anymore. I need to stop being this damn victim, I need to stop making excuses and get up and just live! I used to love singing, dancing, the beach...all of this makes me uncomfortable now and I don't know why, where it came from. I'm scared that if something doesn't change, i'll be looking back and still lonely, lost, loosing it. I want so much for me, but am afraid to go after it. I want so much for my daughter, but don't know how to go about getting it. It's been a day, raining, sad, sleep, lost and so much more negative than the yesterday before. I want the smile I used to have, the glow that everyone saw, and mostly I want to love ME again! -NaNa