A Fein (Some of my work, Hope you enjoy)

I’m addicted, like a dope fein to that needle, like an alchy to the last drip. I hang on to your words like Webster and wonder what would we say if there were no more words left and we had to find a new way to communicate. Would your touch make me melt? Would I shudder, would it scare me or would it be just what I need to cure this aching I have? I wonder is this just another craving, something that if ignored after 15 minutes it’ll be gone.
I wonder if I take that next step will things change for the better, give me that high or will it throw me low, make life worst and have me relying on that one hit to get through my day.
I’m so scared I’ll need rehab, but still I ache to touch the hallow part of your cheek, wonder if my tongue would do magic on it, wonder what else I could do if given the chance to calm this feeling. I want to put my hands all over the smoothness let you know I love it; I love every part of it because it comes from you.
I want so much to stay away from you, but then again I want to come closer I want you to be just as addicted to me as I am to you. I wonder if this feeling is caused by the absence of a previous drug, wonder if it’s because I miss that last hit and just need another not caring where it’s from. Inside I feel it’s not like that, it’s different. That last drug was weak, like a watered down rum and coke, like a wet cigarette, just enough to make you feel like you did something, but still end up wondering what the fuck did I just drink?
I want you to be my vice…I want to feel like I need that, like no matter how much weight i've lost or how much money i've blown, it's all been worth it for that high. I know I shouldnt', I know it's so wrong and I should stay as far away from it as possible, for the consequences could be dire. That's like telling Kobe not to take that shot when there's no one guarding and there's only five seconds on the clock, It's like telling Lebron to stay with Cleveland even though he knows there's a ring in Miami, It's like telling Obama to drop out the race when they have already called him the winner, It's telling me I can't do what I want to do, what I long to do...
I Just Need One Hit!