I like you, I like you a lot and it doesn't help that everytime I talk to you, you say something or somethings that make me like you even more. I don't know what the heck is going on because for the past two and a half years I've been able to turn off the feelings and not even be phased by anyone. I've been able to do me and focus on my life and school and the kid. I mean I'm still able to do all of those things, but lately I've added you to the list of things that I think about and focus on.
The messed up part is that I know it can't be, we can't be. You have someone, responsibilities just like I do. You are working it out and making it work & I respect that, I also think that's a part of why I like you so much because I wanted that in my own situation. I can see that your heart is in it and it makes me smile because even though it's not me, someone out there is happy.
You've been nothing but real with me and as much as I try to tell myself I just want to be your friend and nothing more, I know it's not all true. I know you probably don't even look at me like that, never thought twice about it, but I do. I don't want to feel this anymore, I don't want to kick it and like you when I know you don't like me, but you've been nothing but nice to me so it's hard to just say I won't call or text or answer a BBM when I hear that beep.
One day I guess, I'll find someone who feels the same way. I'm tired of being the friend, but I guess it's not my time, i'm not ready to be more and i'm not ready to be less...LIFE
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