A work in progress

I can't believe that it's been almost a year since my last post. It has been an interesting year, some parts harder than others, but a learning year for me. I won't say i'm back quite yet because like the title of this post says I am currently a work in progress. I'm still trying to get my self to a place where I can be comfortable enough to blog regularly and with all that has been going on with me recently I know that i'm not there yet.
Here's the recap:
August 2011: Confusion with family, friends, love life etc. I blogged about it & then I let it go, and apparently never looked back for almost a year!
October 2011: Started a new job in Human Resources. Finally my degree was being put to use. I took a paycut, but I was excited at the possibility of growth with my new company. Met someone new....not available (I see a pattern here)
December 2011: Had a great holiday! Family was better, I think it has alot to do with the fact that we are all living seprately now, so the space has worked. Christmas was amazing for the princess, I was smiling which is something that I wasn't doing often enough.
January 2012 - April 2012: THE SHUT DOWN! My new HR position was with a refinery in the Virgin Islands, the 2nd largest refinery in the western hemisphere, a refinery that has been with the Virgin Islands for as long as I have been alive and then some. Part of my job was announcing to people who have been with this company for over 30 years that it was over, we were no longer going to operate as a refinery. Shocking is appropriate to describe the feeling. It was indeed one of the hardes times of my life, but also in a different space one where I would learn so much about life & people and the power of believing that good things could come from even the worst of situations. My role at the company has changed drastically, while the last day for 80 percent of employees was April 20 (Yes 4/20) I was chosen along with a small group of individuals to stay on a transition team & assist with the shut down. It has been a blessing & a curse. While I am grateful for the extra money & few perks that will come from being on the transition team, it has also been a rough time to deal with. At this point with 11 days left I am ready for this chapter of my life to be over & excited for whatever awaits me. I am optimistic about the possibilities.
July 2012: Get It How You Live! My daughter turned 5 ya'll! My baby is no longer a baby, it's amazing how the day before she was born I was so afraid to be a parent. I wasn't ready, there are still days when I feel that way, but i'm proud of myself because against many odds I have done it, BY MYSELF! My daughter is amazing, she's funny, she's smart, she is everything to me. There are still days when I struggle, & still days when I cry, but I can honestly say that I am far better off today, than I was yesterday & the day before. I am learning, I am living, I am loving (in small doses offcourse) I am having fun and I am still a work in progress!