We often spend so much time complaining about the things that are going wrong and we forget to say thanks for the good things that are happening in our lives. When I first started writing this blog it was about getting my feelings out, finding release in everything that was going on with me. I have come a long way since I've started writing. I'm not as angry as I used to be and I am learning each and everyday to appreciate to good things because they should always outweigh the bad. Moving back home last year felt like I had given up. I felt defeated, I was tired and I never thought I would bounce back from that. Today I am grateful that I got a chance to start over. I feel like I have made a lot of good changes in the past year and hope to continue on that path. These are some of the many things I'm thankful for right now.
1. My princess Nia! She's going to be 3 years old on Saturday and I am still in love with being her mom. I could not have asked for a better kid. She has been everything to me and continues to drive me to be a better person.
2. School! One of the biggest decisions that I made when I came home was to return to school. I have been doing excellent in my courses, managed to stay on the Dean's List, and in 9 months I will be proudly walking across that stage to receive my Bachelor's Degree.
3. My relationship with my sisters has been getting better. It was rough in the beginning trying to get used to them being older and having their own lives. I was used to them looking up to me and wanting to be like me and it was hard seeing them make some of the same mistakes that I made growing up. I have had to step back and realize that we each have our own hurdles to jump over and sometimes history has to repeat itself so that we can all learn the same lessons. Although there are still moments where we disagree or argue about a certain issue I can say that I am proud of both of them. They have grown up into beautiful, smart and independent young ladies. I pray that we remain close and always have eachother in our lives.
4. My Mom! She's an amazing woman. Somedays she drives me crazy and I'm sure she can say the same about me, I think in the same way that I had to get used to my sisters growing up, she is going through the same with me. I too am a mother now so things are a little different. No matter what though I love her & I know that I always will! I will always be your shadow :)
5. My Father. We still don't have that daddy's girl relationship, but I know that I can call him and express my feelings and we can talk like two adults. I'm glad that I no longer hold any resentment towards the past. Life is too short for it and in order for me to be happy I had to forgive & let go. He will always be the way he is, but I'm okay with that because I don't need a caretaker anymore, I just need a hug every now and then & I think he can handle that.
6. My Friends Shawn & Jade! They both have gotten me through some really tough times. I'm happy to have them and happy to know that it's genuine.
7. My car "LEXI". It is truly a blessing and I am so thankful for this. Never be afraid or reluctant to give something up, sometimes it's because there is something better waiting for you on the other end.
8. My Job! I had to work at some place really crappy to learn to appreciate good co-workers and a nice environment. I have a long way to go as far as my career goals, but right now I'm okay with where I'm at.
9. My health. There are things that we take for granted like our body and sometimes we have to experience a hard blow to really see how fast it can go. I am slowly getting better from my Bronchitis and I am determined to take care of myself better from now on. That means excercise, eating better & plenty of rest. This time I'm doing it for me!
10. Life! Love! Laughter!
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