They say that everyone that comes into your life at one point or another will do so for a reason. The length of time that they remain a part of your life will depend on their purpose. In my 27 years of life I have met people who have helped, hurt, grounded and changed me. I'm pretty sure I have done the same for those whose lives I have entered. We often tend to look back at our past and regret the things we've done and the people we've done them with. I have learned to appreciate the changes and learning experiences that came with those who are no longer in my life. When I look back at all the characters in my life I can't help but smile. Sometimes I wonder, what the heck was I thinking, but I know that who I am today couldn't be possible without those blunders.
I remember my best friend growing up and how different our lives were. She had lost her mother at the age of six and didn't have some of the luxuries that I took for granted, but back then none of it mattered because all we knew was our friendship. We looked out for each other, we played like there were no differences. We attended the same schools, rode the same bus home and shared a backyard. I still see her every now and then and we smile and reminisce about our mud pies and story times, although we don't talk everyday like we used to, I know we still have each others backs. She made my childhood brighter!
I continued to meet people and make and lose friends as I got older. I met a boy who I fell in love with and then he broke my heart. I got closer to a cousin who helped me through my senior year in high school. She became my shoulder to lean on and the source of laughter when I had my tears, but it's funny how I was the same to her because she was going through her own heart ache. We were there for each other. Not as close today as we once were, but again I know she's always a phone call away.
I met more boys in the years following. One who was never supposed to be mine, but back then I thought I was in love. I still get butterflies when I see him, but I know it will never be. It's just one of those things that you can't explain I guess, but he had a purpose. I had friends who turned out years later to not be friends. Friends who slept with my ex-boyfriend, friends who talked about me behind my back & friends who know so many of my secrets that they could black mail me one day. I met my daughter's father whom back then I loved, loved, loved and today I hate, hate, hate! He had a reason to be in my life and I love her so much! If I didn't meet him, I would never have met her!
I met my best friend who was once my boyfriend, then I hated him, now he's my heart! He's there for me in ways that no one else could be. I continue to meet people who open my eyes, heart and mind! I still meet those who make me angry, cold, and afraid. I have learned to forgive, to live, to learn and sometimes to let go!
Some people are in my life for a reason, a season or a lifetime and I no longer question their departure, because when they are gone I just know it was that time!
No comments:
Post a Comment